this a nightmare

ive been thinking about my life
n i realized im worth FOR CRAP. i dont do anything or know anything. im not capable of beind independent with my own self. i depend of a stupid bag of pills n if i dont take them im insane. i know im a complete issue for my family n friends. n everything is just so wrong n im exhausted of being bipolar n being sad. idk what to do to be happy, i really dont. n im desperate...